I happened to go onto Facebook last night, something I do only every couple of months ... I'm not sure why, I just seem to be "Facebook challenged".
I'm glad I checked in.
I found out about Benji.
When I first met Benji back in the early 1980's, he hugged me. Benji was from Peru, and was one of the nicest men I've ever known - and he was a great hugger! I was at that time engaged to his nephew, and Benji made me feel like part of the family.
Through the years, even though we only got together every couple of years, I always felt love and kinship from him, Aunt Geri, and cousin Michael.
Several months ago, Benji was diagnosed with cancer.
If I had spent more time on Facebook, I would have known.
But I didn't.
Benji passed away last Saturday.
I missed the opportunity to hug him one last time.
To tell him how much I loved him.
Even when my husband and I separated ... to Benji I was still family.
I feel so guilty.
I didn't even know he was sick.
I love you, Mr. Enrique Cordova. I miss you. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you. I'm so glad you were surrounded by family and friends ... I just wish one of them had been me.
Heaven is brighter for your presence ... and earth is a little dimmer.
Rest in peace, dear Benji.
Love and Peace to Geri and Michael, and the rest of my extended in-law family.
I love you all.
I miss you all.
3 comments:
Oh that is sad, but I think there is rejoicing in heaven as his soul arrived.
Facebook is a powerful tool for sharing news of friends and family, isn't it?
So sorry to hear of his passing. But don't feel guilty. If you had known you would have gotten in touch. We all have a tendency to let friends and family members that aren't close by, slip away with out our getting in touch like we should.
Sorry I haven't been around for a while myself, I do check Facebook everyday, even though I don't always post anything.
Right now I've been doctoring for my back am going for an MRI tomorrow. Hope I can stand being squashed into that tube like thing. I was told it would take about 45 mins.
Take care.
Your sense of loss must be hard to carry. You know he feels your love... and with that all is well. Breathe and know that he knows your heart. xo teri
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